such a long drive

"'It's motivated skepticism,' says psychologist Peter Ditto of the University of California, Irvine. 'You're more skeptical of things you don't want to believe and demand a higher level of proof.' Denial is unconscious, or it wouldn't work: if you know you're closing your eyes to the truth, some part of you knows what the truth is and denial can't perform it's protective function."

- Newsweek, Sharon Begley, "The Truths We Want to Deny"

Reading this kinda gave me chills. I'll consider that a sign.

I can't count how many times in the past year, month, week, even day that I've wanted to stop all this nonsense and quit being a musician. The heartache that it causes in one way or another is absurdly overwhelming at times; today has just been one of those days I guess. I get so sick of having this "songwriter" mind... of perhaps overthinking things, pressing my mind for ideas for my next big hit.  read more »