too close to home
"'It's motivated skepticism,' says psychologist Peter Ditto of the University of California, Irvine. 'You're more skeptical of things you don't want to believe and demand a higher level of proof.' Denial is unconscious, or it wouldn't work: if you know you're closing your eyes to the truth, some part of you knows what the truth is and denial can't perform it's protective function."
- Newsweek, Sharon Begley, "The Truths We Want to Deny"
Reading this kinda gave me chills. I'll consider that a sign.