It just occurred to me that this is the first time in ten years of school that I do not have a music class. Wowza. At least I'll get my fill next semester. :) Also, Sarah Tollerson and "the Big Fantastic" band practice kind of gets me my fill. My boys are music geniuses and they have been teaching me a lot. Sooo excited and I will be sooooo sad to leave. Oh well, such is life.
So I've had a really weird week which probably went unnoticed by most people. No fault to them; I've done a pretty good job of hiding it when I really want to. There seems to be a lot of things unsettled right now, also, about a billion relationship issues unsurfaced, and the stress is getting to me a little bit. To make matters worse, I'm really bad at dealing with unpleasant situations, so I just... don't. I kinda like wallowing in my issues and figuring them out by myself (almost, with a helpful ear here and there), hoping they will blow over. Of course, they almost always do.
As I make way into this academic year, I have, as usual, set goals entirely too high for myself. The list of stuff I have to get done before I go to Berklee is ridiculous. The number one thing that should be on my mind is working on scholarships, in particular Berklee scholarships, but where am I? Just trying to live life. Going through one day at a time, working, doing homework, working, sleeping, band practice, eating, touching my guitar now and then, working, working. But again... such is life. If I didn't set my goals high I would never get anywhere.
Ahh I wish I could just figure everything out. Why is August always so hard for me?
I hope the Sarah Tollerson Band debut is a success. After all, we only have 3 months to make a name for ourselves. Three months. And then I'm off to be a solo act again, something that sounds not exciting at all, but it has to happen. Maybe my writer's block will finally officially dissolve for a while. I need some songs. Soon.
I don't think anyone reads this anymore. Or maybe it's just that I don't write anything that I haven't already said before. You all know me far too well.