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July 02, 2003

I Can't Believe I'm Doing This

Current Music: Fiona Apple - Fast As You Can

Haha, I can't believe I'm doing this. For one thing, it's kind of a cop out of an entry. No offense Jenna... but I know you know it is. For another thing, some of these questions I don't really want to answer. And another thing, I will probably get no comments because who is actually going to go through and read these random facts about me? But I'm bored. So I'm doing it. Much love guys.

*** SIMPLE QUESTIONS: ***

1. Full name: Sarah Elizabeth Tollerson

2. Nicknames: Sarah Clara, courtesy of my mom - Sarahpottamus, thanks to Aunt Kim. I don't think my friends really have any nicknames for me.

[Why is there no #3? I'll make my own #3.}

3. Cool thing you picked up from your sister: I'm pretty sure I got this from Jenna... we don't abbreviate things like "street". Yep, it's 155 Walker Street, Winder, Georgia. It just looks cooler.

4. Height: 5'2" or 5'3"... there is much debate.

5. Hair: Drama day camp choppy cut by Traci.. it's cute though! Brownish.

6. Siblings: Two big sisters that take care of me :)

7. Do u like to sing in the shower? I think this is a given.

8. Do u like to sing on the toilet? Sometimes but I try not to do it when people are home because I don't want them to think I'm weird for singing while I'm peeing.

9. Birthday: September 29, 1985

10. Sign: Libra

11. Address: Winderish

12. Sex: sometimes woman, sometimes girl

13. Righty or lefty: righty... I can't even brush my teeth with my left hand.

14. What do you want in a relationship? "affection, heat, loyalty" - that was Jenna's answer and it kicked ass so I'm using it.

15. Have you ever cheated? no no

16. Marital status: Not married but I had my first one year anniversary a few weeks ago with a nice boy :)

17. Do you have a car? no... and I'm asking myself... why didn't I start saving a few years ago? Hmm...

18. What kinda car do you have/want? one that runs well... volvos are cool

19. Movie: Too many... or too few

20. Song: Right now The Blowers Daughter by Damien Rice

21. Band/ singer: ah, I'm sick of answering this question

22. Show: Dawson's Creek. Weekdays 10-12 baby!

23. Actor: Grant Chapman, Kyle Kirby, Benjamin Carnathan, and Zack Pierce :)

24. Actress: Samantha Kirby naturally... she's so funny. Especially that cat show.

25. Food: Italian, yay

26. Number: for some reason I've always like 112. And 4 is my soccer number and '04 is my class.

27. Cartoon: I like the Simpsons. and Care Bears.

28. Disney character: I really like The Little Mermaid and The Lion King but I don't know about specific characters.

29. Color: blue and sometimes green


*** LOVE, LIFE, ETC: ***

30. Do you plan on having children: yes

31. Do you want to get married: yes

32. How old do you wanna be when you have your first child: um... I'm thinking I really want to be 27 or 28 but practically 23 or 24.

33. How old do you wanna be when you're married: I don't know, when it's right. Let me put it this way ... I definitely want to be married by the time I'm... say... 28. Geez, that's like 10 years. Not too long really.

34. Would you have kids before? I sure hope not

36. Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): Yes, the ruggedly handsome and talented Shawn Regan.

37. Do you have a crush: YES

*** EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER) ***

38. Music/TV: music

39. Guys/Girls: they are both good for different things

40. Green/Blue: Greenish... or bluish... I don't know.

41. Pink/Purple: that's hard. neither is my favorite.

42. Summer/Winter: summer

44. Hangin Out/Chillin: haha, what the heck?

45. Dopey/Funny: um... funny

46. Flirty/Playa: haha, isn't that the same?

47. What school do u go to? Winder-Barrow High, what what

48. Have you ever taken drugs? taken? no.

49. What's a major turn on for you? guitar playin'/singin'

50. How far would you go on a first date? clothes are staying on for sure


*** 51. the person you know who is... ...***
[Why does the numbering system change here?]

mOsT bLoNdE: Blonde like hair or attitude?

BeSt person: Sam-antha. She's so well-rounded.

NiCeSt: Dixie

FuNnIeSt: people who make me laugh. like Kyle.

HaPpIeSt: G-pa and G-ma Hedges seem like really happy people.

StRaNgEsT: Courtney! and Ryan. and Alex.

Craziest: Don't know

TaLlESt: Sam Deeds

Smart test: Jenna and Heather, my dad, Sam, Angela, Jason
(All these people beat me on the SAT. I found out today I made an 1160. 650 verbal and 510 math. Haha.)

BeSt pErSoNaLiTy: There are so many! I really really really like Shawn's though. Obviously.

[here it changes back]

52. Which person do you trust and are open with the most? probably Shawn... and Jenna and Courtney in different ways

53. What do you think of soul mates? "They are not always the person you marry, sometimes it's your best friend, and I think you can have a small number, more than one, less than 4" - stealing Jenna's answer again

55. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? this was one of those I didn't want to answer. I'll just say it's a person though.

56. What's something about guys/girls you don't get? a lot. human nature is hard.

57. Are you happy? most of the time

58. Why?why not? In my own little world things are pretty good but outside factors kind of dampen things sometimes.

59. What's an object you can't live without? my guitar

60. Love or lust: love all the way

61. Silver or gold: silver

62. Diamond or pearl: if I had to pick one... diamond I guess but neither is the most amazing thing

63. Sunset or sunrise: I would be kind of a hypocrite if I said sunrise because I rarely see it but I think in it's own way it's prettier than sunset.

64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? nope nope

65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no... I gave up Lambie a while ago.

66. Do you have any piercings: no

67. What color underpants are you wearing right now? black

68. What song are u listening to right now? Sleep to Dream - Fiona Apple. Weird that at the beginning of this and now it's Fiona Apple. She's cool though.

69. Where would you like to live in the future? Lots of places. Near the beach somewhere in Florida, L.A. area, West Virginia (summer!), Atlanta

70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? ah heck I don't know

71. Who do u want to spend the rest of your life with? I think that question is a little intense (at least for surrounding parties) unless you are already engaged. And I'm not. So I'm skipping.

72. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: if he's hott with two t's.

73. Favorite sport? Soccer, baby. Cross country is panning out to look pretty cool too.

74. What makes you happy? Being busy. My friends, my family, my boyfriend. But those things make me sad sometimes too.

75. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get? probably Davistreet's. Or maybe mine! That would be neat.

76. Do u wear contacts or glasses? no... I am blessed for now.

78. Have u ever won any special awards? why yes I have.

79. What are your future goals? happiness, family, having enough money to not be totally stressed out

80. Worst sickness u ever had? feeling like your stomach or back is gonna fall off and not being able to do anything because of it. Haha, that's the medical term for it.

81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? I like good funny and good scary

82. On the phone or in person? in person... unless it's something really serious then I have a hard time bringing it up in person.

83. Hugs or kisses? both are niiiice... but I guess I would choose hugs because you can be a hug slut but not so much a kiss slut. You can hug in public too and people won't really be that offended.

84. What song seems to reflect you the most? Geez, I don't know. You tell me.

85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? My family I reckon but I like to think I'm not going to die tomorrow

86. Do u have any enemies? not really

87. What is your greatest fear? that's a hard one too.

88. Would you rather be rich or famous? famous

89. What time is it in Albania now? haha, I'm not gonna take time to figure that out.

90. Have you ever been in love? yes

91. Have you met santa? I guess. There is a Santa in all of our lives. Haha.

92. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking to use ur phone what would you do? let him in and bring him the phone and some water. I would offer him another drink but that is all we have in our house.

93. What celebrity would you want to marry? Shawn Regan. Haha... what... he's a celebrity!

94. Do u have any pets? yes

95. Whats your email address? you're gonna spam me!

96. Been depressed: yes

98. What are you thinking about right now: it's 11:27 and Shawn has been idle for a while.

99. where do you want to be? If I'm truly honest right now the people reading will probably think I have a one-track mind. So I'll just say asleep.

100. Do u want your friends to write back? it would be cool if everyone posted this nifty thing in their journal. It takes a long time to fill out though!


I can't believe I did it...

Convoluted Thoughts that may mean nothing tomorrow

Okay... I'm posting this again. I had posted it then I deleted it even though the web world didn't quite know it yet and now I am posting it again. I posted it the first time without reading it through... and what do you know? The next day I think it's stupid. So I delete it. But it's okay that it doesn't all make sense. That's what my online journal is for... a place for me to look stupid. Right? So here it is... the entry I almost wish I didn't share.

Current Music: The Blowers Daughter - Damien Rice

I'm feeling so thoughtful right now and I'm not really sure why.

A lot of times I'll sit down to write something to someone I care about and I think I won't have anything to say but then I just get going and it turns out I have everything to say. Maybe this will be one of those moments - or maybe not.

Everything around me is so incredible. I am so confused and I don't really know where life wants me to go but I do know that it's amazing. I feel consumed by it. It seems like everything has this quality to it... and it's so hard to describe. But the best thing I can come up with is summer. Life feels like summer. And I guess that makes sense... because it is summer. I wish I could stay here forever.

It's funny how you will have these deep moments one night at 10:56 P.M. and the next day at 10:56 A.M. you won't know where they came from. That's why you've got to get it all out before it goes away. These thoughts happen for a reason. Night time exists for a purpose. This is when I discover myself. So for the first time, I'm not going to go back and read everything and edit and take out things I think will sound ridiculous. I'm giving it up. Why shouldn't I? After all, it's summer.

Let me continue to stretch out and feel the world like I have been these past few days. Let me live life with love in my heart. Help me to never grow up.

Oh yes... and thanks for everything.


"I am falling
I am falling in love
I am falling in love
I am falling in love with you"

"Do you remember the way that you touched me before,
all the trembling sweetness
I loved and adored..."

"Nobody knows it,
but you've got a secret smile
and you use it only for me..."