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August 27, 2002

Tribute to the lunch table

Current Music: Shaded Fire - Veblen

There's just something about last year, thinking back to the fall, third period in Perry's room. Looking back it seems like everything just felt different. We were different. We were sophmores, and we were tight. Magic happened in that classroom --- it's intangable, and hard to describe, but it was there, and I think anyone else who experienced it would tell you the same.

It was the lunch table crowd, and we sat the same way every day. Emma, Billy, Courtney, Eric, Ben, Angela, Jason, Traci, Wesley, and I huddled around the round table in the corner of the cafeteria and discussed absurd topics. One of us barely spoke, some got into crazy fights about giving away food, and there was definite flirtation happening at certain areas of the table. We welcomed the new kid when he came, sat between the couple when they broke up, and felt something was missing when one of us stopped coming to our lunch to help another friend. Everything was understood and misunderstood between us at the same time. We were sophmores, and it was wonderful.

While I know that the sophmores in us are gone, the simplicity and the drama, I wish I could have appreciated it when I was there, living it. The ten of us are never going to have our round table in the corner of the cafeteria again, lay around in Perry's room for lazy S.S.R., or make crazy movies and call them "book projects". Individual friendships may linger, but the ten of us? We'll just have to look back at third period first semester of sophmore year, and try to remember how it felt.

August 05, 2002

Cold Day in August

Current Music: Baby Got Back - Sir Mix a Lot

You know what one of the worst feelings in the world is?

When you feel like your friends don't support you.

I know that it sounds strange for me to even say this, because for the most part I have the most supportive friends you could ask for. You guys encourage me in everything that I do, believe that I can make it someday if I want to, even do free photo shoots for me just so my website can be updated (Thanks, Angela).

If you can tell that I'm referring to you in the unsupportiveness, then I guess that's where the problem lies.

I don't get it.

August 01, 2002

dissolved

I think the realization that I am going back to school and I'm not going to be able to focus on any of the things I want has dissolved my eternal good mood.

It was awesome while it lasted, and maybe it will come back.

But today I'm just mad as anything. The only thing I wanted to do didn't work out because of various reasons with my parents, but it's not even really their fault.

And now, after being awoken from a nap, I'm waiting to go "change the sign" at 106 West. Like she really believes in that place anyway.

Bitter, much? Let me know what you're thinking.

I sure did.

Ha, these are starting to sound more like Jenna's...